I don't write a lot of blog posts like this ... but I just felt like this needed to be done.
I want to talk about and reflect on 2021 because... to be honest.. wtf was that?
I look back at my goals for the year and all the things I have accomplished and everything just seems so blurred and bunched together.
Am I the only one who felt like this year went by ridiculously fast? Like... 2021 had somewhere to be didn't it?
I had a lot of wins this year (will be in the Yearly Blessings post so stay tuned)... but I also had a lot of heartaches. I cried. I had breakdowns. There were times I was so broke it was actually kind of ridiculous in comparison to how much money I was supposed to be making.
So, I wanted to discuss... maybe vent... my thoughts and some of the things I learned this year.
First... running a business is hard. Managing employees is hard. This is the first time I had a team of multiple people doing multiple things within my business and trying to manage it all and keep the quality of the content I was producing was difficult. I am planning on trying to employ more hours to my assistant and put her on official salary within my business and the process of figuring THAT out... difficult. There were a lot of moments where I thought maybe I was way in over my head. I considered quitting my business at least 4 times this year. I was stepping into new discomforts.
I made more money this year than I ever have in my life working for myself monthly and I was very excited. Ya girl was making SCHMONEY... but making that money revealed some HEAVY money management issues in me. I found myself spending stupidly and not investing in things I knew I needed. I basically threw all my money in the toilet and it was THE most frustrating emotion ever. Me and my fiancé discussed regularly how if someone saw our income monthly, they'd be shocked... and even more shocked at what's left in my bank account because I constantly spend $60 on doordash orders one at a time.
I also discovered a new kind of self-love. This year was one of the first years I can honestly say I prioritized my self-care. I did not work 100 hour weeks (don't judge me but I have been known to do this). I took regular breaks. I spent at least one day a week doing absolutely nothing. I went out with friends and spent more time around people than I have since I became an adult. It made a huge difference.
I grew my relationship with God and my spirituality became an even bigger part of my life. I found myself being able to hear him so much more clearly.
In 2021, I learned so much about myself both good and bad and while it wasn't easy, the knowledge I took from this year is really going to elevate 2022 for me.
I am blessed for what I've learned and excited for where I am going.
How was 2021 for you?